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| 10:09am 10/01/2007 |
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mood:  Given Up On You. music: Neophyte - Everlast
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I am.
Completely.
Lost.
and I cannot be saved now.
fuck you
fuck her
I don't fucking care anymore.
I hate humanity.
Every
Last
One
Of you.
I can't even express anymore, the hate I feel.
It all goes straight to hell.
When you can lose best friends in such a stupid way.
When things change so rapidly that everyone around you is so fucked up, no one can fix it.
When you start slipping -
and the only thing you do is say 'I wish it were [FUCKING] different'!
If you really want to repair this,
you will fucking do something to do it.
until then--I give a fuck, no longer.
for all of you. |
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| Perpetual Sorrow |
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| 10:18pm 05/12/2006 |
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mood:  uncomfortable music: Warmen - Spark
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I need someone to hold me
-.-
pretty much feel horrible
*sigh*
nothing is right.
I just don't know what to expect anymore.
it all seems to be ending.
every
last
person
-
lost.
even talking with you is becoming harder for me.
:-\
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| 08:39pm 24/11/2006 |
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mood: melancholy music: My Dying Bride - The Scarlet Garden
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Why in the hell do I even bother...
Always.
Fucking always
Can't wait for the next one.
god damn.
<(- -<) (>- -<) (>-*-<) |
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| 12:24am 24/11/2006 |
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mood: disappointed music: Ill NIño - When it Cuts
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I can't do this.
It's killing me. |
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| You Are. |
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| 05:34pm 23/11/2006 |
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mood:  calm music: Stupid football... bleh
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I wish you were here.
I wish
aye |
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| No You Don't |
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| 09:12pm 18/11/2006 |
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mood: O.o music: LImp Bizkit - Nookie
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It's not true. I dreamt it.
agh |
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| 09:05pm 06/11/2006 |
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mood: crushed music: Old Man's Child - What Malice Embrace
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Destroy.
Imagine
Being crushed
From the inside out.
That's me
Let it bleed
It's easy to hate.
Believe me, it's what I do.
And don't you worry, I hate you too. |
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| Shoot Myself To Love You. I'd Be Shooting You If I Loved Myself... |
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| 08:37pm 12/09/2006 |
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mood:  complacent music: Rammstein - Amour
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Aye
long
long
story
about how I
love a girl
...
again
*sigh*
I wonder if I can ever go right..
seems as though every move I make is a mistake.
and it just seems to bring me further and further from my true desire
maybe one day..... |
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| 04:53pm 25/06/2006 |
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mood:  bouncy music: A Chopp-y fan
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FUCK YOU |
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| Tomorrow Brings A Better Day. |
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| 09:52pm 27/03/2006 |
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mood:  enthralled music: HIM - Wing of a Butterfly
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She is dsajlfhesiufhw
and I'm dasjfhuiswhfew
and we're all fkjhsdfkjhsdk
so let's get ajheuwhcw
ehh
I hate everythign again
I don't love anyone again..
I have interests... still including her.. but it's significantly less
considering the circumstances.. I don't think I should accept her even if she were to change her mind...
ayee
whatever.
I'm done with this shit for a while.
I'll just marry my cat :)
hah bye. |
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| Alright |
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| 06:30pm 10/03/2006 |
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mood:  annoyed music: Nightwish - Wanderlust
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So I lied...
Well
I don't even care anymore..
She lies/ or seems like it
way too much.
and I'm losing trust in her, and with that my love.
Well,
...
that's it for now. |
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| Yeah. |
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| 10:08pm 08/03/2006 |
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I'm just going to try asking her tomorrow...
Heh hope that works fine.. |
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| The Amazement, It Continues |
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| 08:58pm 08/03/2006 |
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mood: bouncy music: Children of Bodom - Hate Me!
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Well, she is just one amazement after another, she is.
First with the lie crap, which I'm almost certain of...
And now, she's right back on top.
God.
I love her .
I can't explain the perfect reason why...
But it is apparent to me.
She doesn't even know how much I truly do.
I've tried to show her without making it seem too obvious.. Cause she'll backdown, and I know cause I've seen her do it..
Aie
well,
I'm happy.
For now.
It was a great day. |
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| It Does Amaze Me. |
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| 07:06pm 06/03/2006 |
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mood: discontent music: HIM - Fortress of Tears
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How she lies to me.
Or... rather, hides/doesnt tell me the truth..
its nice.
>.<; |
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| 12:13am 04/03/2006 |
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mood:  determined music: DDR - Healing Vision
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I love her. |
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| 10:03pm 01/03/2006 |
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mood:  busy music: Blink 182 - Shut Up
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WHenever I call, she doesn't answer...
Whenever she calls, she whines about me enevr calling. >.>
And we never do anything.. But she doesn't make the effort, so why should I?
grr
whatever
I'm losing my patience with this one each day something like this happens. |
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| 07:13am 28/02/2006 |
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mood: bitchy music: Bleeding Through - Revenge I Seek
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God this is so.. djfkhduaicbeu +3
I'm not in a very good mood this morning.
I don't know exactly why...
I just am not.
My dream last night was .//.
I don't know, I can't think of what it was...
But it had good and bad in it cause I feel the effect a bit.
When I woke up, I kept hearing this little beeping sound. it was annoying as fuck.
Now I get to go to something even more annoying... School.
Oh joy.
If I don't go insane, maybe I'll update when I'm back.. |
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| 07:13pm 27/02/2006 |
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mood:  crazy music: Tetrix (Tetris Remix)
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this.
is why I don't like things.
////////
She gives me reason to believe she may possibly have feelings for me....
but
as before...
I'm sure I'm just thinking too into this.
aieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
she told me randomly
"I love you."
and I questioned it at first cause I wasn't certain I had heard her correctly.
and she said it again clearly.
Then I told her I love her too. and she said
"I'm sure you don't love me the same way I love you"
and I agreed
then she asked me
"are you In Love with me?"
I didn't answer and she asked
"Why are you in love with me?"
I answered "I don't know" cause I wasn't exactly sure how I should go about answer it right now.
Then I asked why she had asked me that
she never responds. |
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| 05:07pm 27/02/2006 |
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mood:  apathetic music: Darkest Hour - This Curse
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so...
She remembered... but apparently, I'm the flake now..
heh
so, oh well.
That's fine. I think it was just a misunderstnading.
THe fucking movie wasn't even in theatres anymore anyhow.
And I'm really not feelin' for her like I used to.
She gives reason enough not to...
I just don't really care what happens now, from here.
I've been pushed by everyone, so that now I don't give a fuck about how most anything turns out.
Hmnn
Ahh well.
if I can get my grades up a bit, then I'll be fine, and happy in years to come... that's the most important. |
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